what's up: a letter
i wrote a letter to you
saying how i really feel
but i guess you won't reply even if i send it out
so what's the point of sending it out
i will just keep it to myself then
maybe until my death
someone, maybe one of my grandchildren
will take it out and read it in future
and find out that 50 years ago
grandma was so deep in love with someone
but she could never be with him again
because she didn't cherish what she had
she just needed more time to realise what she really needed and wanted
she needed more time to say 'i'm sorry'
more time to say 'i love you, i can't live without you'
but she was not granted this bit of time
and things just ended like that
no closure, no proper ending
he ignored her totally
no reply to any of her messages, her calls, her emails, whatever she sent to him
he didn't care about her anymore
nothing could be done
it was too late
too late to regret
her feelings for him were still so deep
but there was no choice but to bury those feelings
deep deep down inside her heart
so that no one would know
just how much she loved him
jas sang and danced away at 8:04 pm on Wednesday, Nov. 21, 2007